The engagement… that had settled us down.
And the wedding… would be to share our joy of being one to the world…

Have not been sharing any interesting videos for some time… and I’d just stumbled upon this a while ago. They are simply awesome!

See… we can do wonders if we are united! That’s what I see apart from being entertained by it…

By the way… Do you get most of the songs they were singing…?

岂能尽如人意
但求无愧于心

Life is always contradicting isn’t it…? Many times, there are things that you know and yet you couldn’t tell. When many of us, including the top brass of the country, singing the tune of ‘freedom of expression’ and ‘freedom of news reporting’ or whatever freedom that may be, one thing that always being the question mark is that, can we actually do what we say? Or just mumble away like a silly old hag with no action taken at all…?

Imagine one day, if you see your brother in law is having an affair with another woman or man, would you go tell your sister? Imagine one day, if you see a policeman in uniform forcing a woman to perform oral sex on him, would you report to the police station? Imagine one day, if you realize that some people are enjoying the leeways off the law by bribing those in power, would you be a whistle-blower, or rather in reverse, one of those who are making a ‘lucky escape’ by giving a little extra?

I’ve never done the former… and yet I had been in situation like the latter. And gosh although the guilty conscious that came after that was somewhat uncalled-for, but I couldn’t deny that it did saved me from several mess for if I had not made a ‘wiser’ decision.

But then again, ‘wiser’ is always not ‘better’…

p/s – Pix to share? Coming up soon… sabor ye~

I still couldn’t believe how I made it through… a trip that was planned and yet not-so-planned, a three-day-two-night escape on wheels that eventually put me on the dry dry land with those never-ending bills that yearn for attention… I don’t know but I guess… something in between must have done the trick… that I am still safe and sound here…

And I must say the run-aways during the trip were fruitful albeit the several lost-direction occured but within expectation – and they were fun too! I came back with more than 800 shots taken throughout several places of interest. Of course not all of them ‘boleh tengok’ but what I’m saying is the satisfaction throughout the journey… such as climbing up a huge billboard to catch the sunrise and aeroplanes departing; driving around the inner village area and see villagers sun-drying the salted fish; chasing the rainbow right into another village’s beach; picking up beautiful seashells and watching an aeroplane land right infront of the eyes… and a lot of monkey business that took place among the greens including a suspected spooky guest that slowed the vehicle down for a brief journey…

I would try posting up some photographs taken here… but oh not for the last experience I mentioned earlier – not to scare anyone but no pix available for that though…

For now… it’s again time to go back and start biting my notes and textbook. Final exam is coming several days’ time… And yes, just like how some people used to say, 做了天使回来就做回牛咯… Yeah I’m going to ‘mengkerbaukan’ myself.

Until then, I wish you well…

I’ve been away from here for a long time, after a rather worrying post written more than a month ago…

Many things had happened lately and I’m happy to say that I’m still fine, despite the usual hi and low in my everyday. My dad is fine too, after getting better idea from the doctors of what to expect, what to watch out for and what to work on while living as per usual – plus a little bit of driving – and I think that’s a good sign for us and pretty important to him as it would be too idle and bored just to sit around at home.

Problems and obstacles make you stronger and I could never agree more on this. It also makes you realize the bond of you and your surroundings clearer… They could be your family members, friends, work colleagues, neighbours, lovers and even yourself. All these would eventually lead you to treasure whatever good relationships you now have even more.

For those who showed concerns, no matter it was just an email, a message, a phone call or simply a silent prayer; I thank you from the bottom of my heart as what you did had been one of a pillars of strength. What would my life be without you…

For now… it’s time to keep moving on.

Fancy for one?

And I now keep telling myself to breathe hard… especially to take deep breath whenever the flushing feeling of fear and fright attacks.

And I now keep telling myself to stop thinking and worry too much… that I have to and need to be calm, brave and strong especially during times of uncertainties now…

And I now keep reminding myself to seek wisdom, blessing, and courage from God whenever I feel low, so so low as if tomorrow is never to come.

I’d rather He take me instead of letting the person I dearly love to suffer another possible battle after having gone through a rather difficult one several years ago.

But I sometimes just couldn’t… couldn’t stop to feel scared to think to worry to cry… simply because the person is my father – the one I dearly call ‘papa’ while and since I uttered my first word…

Dear God, would you please, with all your mercy and blessing, bestow him all the needed strength and power to live his life happily and in good health…?

A friend asked me some time ago - if I could only eat one particular food to survive for the rest of my life, what would it be?

And I still remember I answered her without much long thoughts.

“Rice lo…”

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I know, I’m a typical 饭桶  (tong nasi… hahahaa)

Woman has got me listening again… it wasn’t too long ago, it’s just that it blows to realize how time flies.

And I know she was upset. Very upset… sort of lost kinda upset…

x x x

As the street lights passed and ceased, woman finally voiced her puzzlement in much anguish… before she burst into unstoppable tears.

As she left in vain without much clue in her head, her visions were blurred by the flowing tears between the steers and turns around the corners in the city…

She did not know where exactly to go, or anyone to turn to…

And woman slowly sang… it was way far from a decent feeling to hang around nowhere without knowing where to with a broken heart…

And yet she still doesn’t understand… how could all these happened in just flicks of time… Was it righteously wrong since from the very beginning… or is it that time has just done its best to prove the right…

Woman was still singing in bewilderment…

I had never really paid much attention to this song despite it being played pretty frequently on the radio… until one day I was stuck in a jam with a rather disturbed mood, the song intro caught my attention that I increased the volume and started listen to this song word by word.

It is a rather sad number I would say, if one is too carried away while listening then she may cry – it happened, that some old memories came up albeit being long forgotten and forgiven. Haa… life! that is.

I’m trying to pick up this song… Hopefully I can find it in the karaoke list.

Broken Hearted Me – Anne Murray

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